just sleep

Sometimes I want to tell you all my secrets. Well not all of them, but the things in my life that bother me, hurt me. Things that I have a hard time accepting and

Why don't I?

Maybe I'm afraid of what you'll think? Embarrassed of who I am? I really don't have a reason.

I have speculations, I have theories, but when I've tried explaining my theories, my thoughts, my soul to others, they've laughed me out of the doorway, shrugged me off, like one of those annoying beetles you find in your home every summer, tried covering my feelings under the rug.

Now, if you think I'm wining, I am, if say I'm "bitching", you're correct. I have the right, this is my blog, don't read it. :) Moving along. 

 Things in my life right now are a bit, complicated. Things with Michael are great, the cats are doing well. School is very stressful, I've been very sick the last few months, one thing after another really. Dealing with new medications, new doctors, forms to fill out, bills to pay, jobs to find..etc..

Don't get me wrong, I love life. It's beautiful, however there are times when I feel so hopeless. <----that's depressing huh? I'm sure you've stopped reading by now. But "the show must go on". 

One of my mentors recently said this to me..." Decide the kind of life you want to live and set some clear goals..."
I'm thinking about the kind of life I want to live & what goals I want to reach. 

~T

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you