Dealing

Some reason or another these lyrics are in my head, "as long as you love me so, let it snow, let it snow, let it snow". We have about 4 inches outside my house. I love it. I have no where else in the world to be, but right here. Sitting in my office, looking out through my window onto the street. 

Amour

This is outside my window. Beautiful. 

Normally I'm not a fan of the snow, I like to be on the go, but since classes started back, being home, and doing absolutely nothing is wonderful. Watching the white flakes drift from the sky may be my favorite thing to watch. It's relaxing, and face it, all college kids need to relax.

This is an email I got from my mother yesterday, regarding my Nana.  Just one more thing on the plate to swallow.

"Didn't get to tell you earlier; Nana went to the surgeon today. She is sending her to see a Radiologist at St. Mary's that will do her radiation treatment after surgery. They do a specialized treatment there that is only 5 days instead of the 6 weeks she would have to have with normal radiation treatment also with less side effects. She goes there next Wednesday to talk with them to make sure that is a good option for her and then she will schedule surgery with Dr. Logenza after that. Dr. Logenza said the lump is very small, about 7 mm, from what they can tell. It is in Stage I which is very early stage. They will also check her lymph nodes when they do the lumpectomy, which is a normal process."

Why do bad things happen to such good people? Some tell me, "it's god's way of showing his healing power." Others have said "that's just life." I'm not sure what to make of it all. I don't handle things like that very well, something I've never been able to do. As harder I try, the tears just seem to come faster. I suppose I feel sorry for myself, but more importantly, I'm concerned for my Nana, she's so brave, unafraid, and just straight up tough. One of the most important figures of influence I've had in my life. Someone I've always been able to talk to and lean on. Today I called her, and when we talked, the only thing I seemed to be able to do was cry, and tell her how scared I was for her, and Nana simply said, "Im not scared, you shouldn't be, It's going to be okay." I look up to her, and love her with my whole heart. If I could choose anyone in the would to be like, it would be my Nana. 

Just a few things going on inside my head. Thanks for listening, well...reading.

Until then,

~T